Thank you so much for listening. Empathy costs nobody anything, takes some time, but feels damn good receiving it.

As far as my wife? There are a few emotional curves. First, she truly expresses that she hates my guts. Second, her sense of entitlement go WAY beyond what she has become accustomed to for the past 21 years – this is her Christmas Day. The Powerball all rolled into one. (It’s her last bite of the apple and she’s going to bite deep). Through all the years of breaking my ass, SHE has now decided that because she is so unhappy she deserves a better relationship. (This one hurts….If your unhappy, then just go. Nobody has ever stood in her way before, why is this different?)

Can I impoverish myself? Sure, but not on purpose. I can’t just walk away from a job that pays health insurance for me and my children. I have seizures, so I need coverage. Period!
I cannot rely on a woman who works PT at an animal shelter to do anything but pay for gas, and I forgot, after years of requesting, she has recently taken over the cell phone service….I guess the risk of tracking her calls to her “interest” was too real. What a phony she turned out to be. Won’t seem to do anything unless it suits her needs.

So, should I care? Not at all. Let her take what flesh is left on the bone and have the courts enforce me keeping the status quo. Meaning I cannot alter her standard of living.

Very very dark thoughts are crowding in sometimes. It’s pointless to even think of drawing my next breath unless it produces income or affords her a tax break of some type.

It’s not that simple, but yes, in a perfect world I would be happier and healthier.